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The Monsignor had given up trying to talk to the driver more than an hour back. The two nuns in the back of the car had been saying the rosary ever since the journey began. The driver stopped, and consulted a note. He opened the door, stepped out and spoke at an entry phone. The Monsignor heard him murmur again. He got back in the car as a gate opened. As he drove through, the cars lights swept a small enclosed courtyard. The driver drew up by the pedestrian door ignoring what appeared to be a loading dock. He spoke to the Monsignor "You are asked to wait a minute." He opened the car rear door and gestured the younger nun towards the door. She opened it, and closed it behind her. The driver looked again at his watch, then half bowed the Monsignor towards the door. As the Monsignor closed the door behind him, he saw the driver starting the car again. He turned to the greeting of a short solid monk of about 40.

"Good morning Monsignor. You have a letter for us, I believe?" He passed over his letter of introduction. The monk opened it and read it carefully. "Thank you. As you know I must now ask you a question to confirm your identity. What is the first name please of the Bishop of Paris?"

"Francis, though he is known as Jean"

"Finally, a question you will not expect. Please name the church where you took your first communion."

"It was not at a church. I was in a hospital, Benares General hospital in fact."

"Thank you again for your patience. I am Brother Joachim. You will understand that we have to very sure of the identity of our few visitors."

"You take great care to protect the reputation of the Church."

"Sometimes we think that we have even more to lose than the Church; if an ill-intentioned person disclosed our rule, we would be cast out from here. My apologies also for our rule that all arrivals are before sunrise, and departures after sunset. You will be ready for a hot drink and some breakfast. Step this way."

"Monsignor, may I introduce you to Sister Seraphina." The Monsignor's first impression of the person in a habit identical to Brother Joachim's was of a monk, but as she rose from behind a table he realised that he was facing an unusually dressed nun. "Sister Seraphina is our Superior here. I act as her deputy in such matters as receiving male guests." The Monsignor noticed the young nun in her normal habit standing inconspicuously behind Sister Seraphina, who said " I myself was greeting our new Sister Anna Dolores." She nodded towards the nun without introducing her. "Our breakfast is set on the trays on the small table. We will leave the larger table and this tray for Brother Joachim and our new sister. You are already a little shocked, I fear, by the habit that we Sisters wear here. It is a minor precaution against outsiders being scandalised by accidental glimpses of the normal habits of two different sexes. You will be further disquieted, but I must witness the proper welcoming of our new sister." She sat down in the chair placed to look towards the larger table. The Monsignor took the other, which was placed with his shoulder towards the larger table.

"Tea or coffee?" said Sister Seraphina. "Coffee, please. I give it up for Lent, but not easily." He realised that Brother Joachim had sat on a bench beside the young nun and was urging her to eat with words about Brother cook's disappointment if she did not make a good meal.

As the Monsignor ate in companionable silence with Sister Seraphina, he was aware that she was watching the others. However as she turned from them to pour him a third cup of coffee, he heard a gasp from the sister with Brother Joachim. He could not believe his eyes when he saw that her breasts were now bare and Brother Joachim's mouth was applied to the breast farthest from him. He looked away instantly to Sister Seraphina. " I hope that first real shock is the worst you will feel here today. When this House was founded for religious who had both a vocation which every test showed was genuine, but who could not deny themselves to others who were in need of their bodies, we had to work out a rule. One part of it recognises that any new member of our community will be in severe need of physical comforting. That is what Brother Joachim is now doing. I must witness it as the senior here of our new Sister's Sisters; no act of serving other members of our community is ever done here without witnesses. Exclusive feelings between Brothers and Sisters would destroy our community." She ate her second and last piece of toast watching the other pair with a smile on her face.

The Monsignor heard the sounds get quickly louder and more intense. Suddenly they gained a new quality, and he realised that he was probably listening to a female orgasm. Or perhaps more than one; it seemed to go on and on. The groaning male cry must be from Brother Joachim. " It is delightful that you and Brother Joachim gave each other so much at your first welcome here, Sister Anna Dolores. Now we have five minutes to prepare for chapel." The Monsignor found himself left with Brother Joachim. They did not speak until after the service. Then as they went in to the hall where the community's breakfast was laid the Monsignor said "I tried to imagine your state of mind as we went to worship, but my imagination failed utterly."

"Primarily, relief and thankfulness. I had prepared for the welcoming of Sister Anna Dolores with much prayer and all the care of which I am capable. Relief and gratitude for what I received yes, but that is a very minor part of the whole. Had she not responded and let her body rejoice, all would have turned to ashes and I would have been working out bitter regrets in penitence for failing her. Now I can rejoice with our whole community that she has truly come to the home she will share until death."

They listened to the grace before the meal. The Monsignor realised when they raised their faces that the majority of the community were men. He counted eleven female faces including Sister Seraphina; and seventeen men. As a brother stepped towards the reading desk, Sister Seraphina rose and held up her hand for attention. " I must speak to you about two matters. The Monsignor is our visitor today. He is charged with putting a proposition to us. He will do so at a special chapter we will hold this evening. Until then he has asked that he may observe the normal life of our community. The whole life of the community will therefore continue until evening as though he was not present for everyone except Brother Joachim and me. It is seventeen years since we have had a visitor within these walls, but you will remember from reading our rule that only Brother Joachim and I may speak with our visitor."

"The second matter is one for rejoicing. Our new Sister Anna Dolores is being welcomed into our community today." She gestured to the young nun to stand at the right hand end of the top table. "Each of us who has not already given her the kiss of welcome will do so now. She has already breakfasted. Brother Stephen, it is for you to kiss her first before you commence your reading of the rule to us." The young brother turned form the reading desk and with a radiant smile strode to Sister Anna Dolores and took her in his arms. As they kissed their tongues entwined and their hands moved over each others' bodies though without disturbing either of the monkish habits which they both now wore. In less than a minute Brother Stephen stepped to the reading desk and began today's passage from the rule. Sister Seraphina nodded to the first of the brothers on her right. Throughout the meal while the others gave attention to seeing that everyone was silently offered all that he or she might need, and to the reading, the succession of the passionate kisses of Sister Anna Dolores continued. The Monsignor suddenly realised that it was the Sisters now who were kissing her with much the same physical heat.

The meal ended with a brief prayer of thanksgiving. "Now we go to labour," said Brother Joachim; "and I must leave you while I confirm some of our commercial arrangements and check out a shipment of what we have produced."

"Brother Joachim's dealings with those who supply us and buy from us are greatly eased by his fax machines, but since we acquired these devices his dealings move to a sharper tempo and a stricter timetable. He has less labour but is also less master of his time." The Monsignor realised that Sister Seraphina was gently teasing Brother Joachim. "First, Monsignor, you must see our printing workshop." she added.

The Monsignor found that he lost himself in the quality and techniques of the print shop. Two manual presses were producing exquisite type set pages, The work coming from a large and elaborate laser printer served by two brothers was also startlingly clear and elegant. Nevertheless, they spent a further hour adjusting the colour balances to degrees which were imperceptible to the Monsignor until he finally saw the finished product they were content with. They set the machine for a long run and started it as the service bell rang. Sister Seraphina broke off her surprisingly technical commentary. " On the way to service, I am going to give you a substantial glass of brandy, Monsignor. After service, we proceed to caritas, and the brandy will have buffered your perceptions by then." The brandy was very good. He drank it obediently, not stopping to savour it as he would have liked.

From the chapel. the community processed to what the Monsignor realised was a windowless cellar under the dining hall. The room was welcoming with subdued lighting. The furniture was plain but nearly all upholstered. Much of it was what looked to be wide benches. A clear and fervent grace was said in chorus by the whole community, giving thanks for what they might be able to give. The Monsignor was given a comfortable seat in a niche with Sister Seraphina and Brother Joachim on either side of him. As he looked out he saw that the sisters were going up to the brothers. "Strictly, this is Sisters' caritas. Attendance is an obligation on the sisters but not on the brothers. The reverse is the case at evening caritas. Now it is our sisters who are ensuring that any carnal needs which they can meet are met." As Sister Seraphina spoke, the nuns and monks had started to remove each others' habits and under garments, folding and stacking them scrupulously on the tables that were conveniently at hand. Once they were naked, their embraces were fervent.

The Monsignor saw Sister Anna Dolores smiling radiantly as two brothers that she had approached picked her up and carried her to one of the broad padded benches. As they laid her down upon it, she drew one of their penises gracefully towards her mouth.

As he realised that there were ten other intensely sexual groups coming together before his eyes, the Monsignor gave brief thanks for the brandy. There were two normal couples close in front of him. In one an older monk was sliding his body and his penis into the missionary position between the spread legs of a younger sister. In the other, a sister who looked a well preserved sixty was riding a very well endowed thirtyish brother. Just beyond were two brothers who smiled at each other in quick flashes as each gave his mouth to ministering to the others penis, Also fairly close by was another threesome. An older brother with a fat short cock was lying back as a middle aged sister licked and sucked, in turn waving and weaving her behind as a brother kissed and licked her whole genital area. As his eye travelled further up the room. The Monsignor realised that the count of the genders he had made at breakfast should have lead him to expect threesomes. There were three more. One in doggy fashion with the sister apparently oblivious of everything, even of the cock in her cunt, as she salivated over the one in her mouth. Another featured a sister in missionary position guiding the small penis of a fat brother in to the rear of the slimmer young man who was fucking her. The third was clearly rapidly turning into a sandwich with the sister as piggy in the middle. The first wave of collective sex was building and building very rapidly. They all held the sexual high for nearly twenty minutes with only the sisters orgasming. As the brothers excitement got beyond their capacity to for restraint, the wave broke in the sounds of ejaculation all across the room.

The Monsignor turned to Brother Joachim " I have no means of comparison, but isn't this an orgy?"

"It is, I think completely different in spirit - though like you I am no expert in orgies. My impression is that people are present at orgies for self gratification. Satisfaction of others, if any, is a by product of satisfying one's own lusts. Here, at caritas, our whole concentration is on satisfying the needs of our brothers and sisters. Any gratification of our own senses is wholly dependent on what we do for others." "Any gratification?"

"The rebuke is justified. With a careless word I appeared to minimise an immense pleasure of the senses,and accordingly failed to show the gratitude and thanks for that pleasure which I owe and truly feel."

The pattern of the satisfied glow of languid flesh in the room was changing. Several of the brothers were moving away and picking up their clothes. Each of the sisters was turning her hands and lips to restimulating a brother who remained with her on the benches; only Sister Anna Dolores was still the centre of a threesome. The cock of the brother that had come in her cunt was now feeling her lips and her tongue and the inside of her mouth, while both her hands stroked the penis that had come in her mouth.

The sixtiish sister had moved with pussy lips dribbling abundant cum, lifting herself off the well endowed thirty year old. She was kissing, standing, an older brother from a threesome and stroking his balls and cock to renewed stiffness. As he watched her lead her new partner to a couch and settle his cock into herself between her raised legs, the well endowed brother's own penis rose of its own accord to stand nearly straight up from where he still lay. The Monsignor heard Sister Seraphina say " I must go to him". She stepped across in front of the niche. The well endowed brother got up to kiss her and loosen her habit.

In moments Sister Seraphina was naked as her partner carefully placed her folded garments on a table. She smiled, took his hand and lay back on the couch. He caressed her genitals and kissed her lips and breasts for two or three minutes. Then he took two cushions, using them to raise her hips. The Monsignor had an astonishingly clear view of the brother's long and thick cock being eased slowly and happily into her cunt with both Sister Seraphina's hand and the brother's hand assisting. The Monsignor found he was delighted to see the two hands take a moment simply to caress one another. As Sister Seraphina's legs locked behind the brother's sturdy back and they built a rhythm of intercourse, the Monsignor's vision was restricted, but he could not take his eyes away. The sounds of vigorous intercourse had spread through the room again. Sister Seraphina's couch was one of those making scraping sounds as the thrusting and counter-thrusting moved its legs from tile to tile. The Monsignor was startled by the vigour of her hips and back meeting the thundering thrusts the brother was now delivering. Her voice suddenly broke out in cries of orgasm. The Monsignor would not have recognised that soft and thrilling voice as that of the Sister Superior. The brother's pounding thrusts continued with no break in rhythm. The Monsignor watched Sister Seraphina's face as a new orgasm gathered in her over the next two or three minutes. As her face trembled on the edge of ecstasy, the rhythm that the brother had set accelerated rapidly, His hands grasped her buttocks. Her heels dug into his back. Their mutual orgasm climaxed, and lead other climaxes across the room. Sister Seraphina drew the brother's head to her and kissed his eyes and lips tenderly.

They rose from the couch. Sister Seraphina looked at the Monsignor, smiled and quickly slipped her habit on without waiting to put on under garments. He noticed that all the others carried all their garments as the brothers went out to the left and the sisters to the right. "I will do my best not to embarrass you with my personal nakedness," said Sister Seraphina. " I had to go to Brother Samuel because he truly suffers if he does not have a full ejaculation at least four times a day. And all the other sisters were fully engaged."

"Sister, all your courtesies to me are truly appreciated, but after seeing you in the throes of sex, simple nakedness has little power to shock." "Perhaps, but I feel it is improper to address a chaste attention to you in my nakedness."

"It is a point of propriety too fine for me, but the chastity and caring of your attention to me has been conveyed in every word and gesture."

Five minutes later they were all listening to grace for the midday meal. It passed in companionable silence as a sister read another passage from the rule. After the meal, Sister Seraphina took Brother Joachim and the Monsignor into her parlour. The Monsignor was delighted to see a large thermos jug of coffee awaiting them. "We do our best to look after your urgent bodily needs also Monsignor" said Sister Seraphina as she poured him a large cup.

"When I was fucking with Brother Samuel, I did so as a normal response to him; but I also felt that I was in some way bridging a gulf in your perception of our life. Was I correct?"

"The Monsignor's face was blank again with astonishment "Do you use such words as 'fucking'?" he asked. "Oh, of course you do not. We use the four letter words regularly here. The alternative is to talk of making love, and we try to do that throughout our life together. To imply that love is limited to physical intimacies would be a great and dangerous distortion of the way we are bidden to try to live. At the same time, fuck and the terms that go with it carry an immediacy of physical expression which is entirely appropriate. So they are our terms of choice in describing our activities at caritas."

"I think I am too old and set in my ways to learn such usages; but I was distracted from answering your original question. The answer to that is probably yes. I have spoken with you and sense your personal existence to a much greater degree than I sense that of your sisters. The speed and fluency of your use of your body to serve Brother Samuel's need as soon as you observed it does, I think, convey to me much more of the way sexual intimacy is made to serve your care and love of each other. But do not ask me exactly what I mean by that, it will take me some time to digest the implications." He turned to Brother Joachim " I told you I could not imagine your state of mind after you had had sex with Sister Anna Dolores this morning. I was further still from any apprehension of your sisters states of mind. Now after Sister Seraphina's demonstration I know that I am in some way closer to understanding the meaning that had for you."

"You seem a very open and perceptive man, Monsignor. You will have a little time to digest as Brother Joachim and I take turns in showing you aspects of our life this afternoon. I must start with the Superior's annual inspection of the infirmary. This is really the opportunity that Brother Thomas, who is our Doctor, takes to press me for additional medical equipment and supplies. We do not leave the House for medical treatment, and Brother Thomas cannot call other medical men and women in here for consultations. He finds the internet a great help for his professional contacts, but it does whet his appetite for arcane and expensive equipment and drugs." "What happens when you need more treatment than can be given here?"
"We die, as all human beings do sooner or later."

"And is Brother Thomas your sole medical resource?"

"No, we have an arrangement with a pontifical university so that someone who has studied medicine here sufficiently hard can be recognised as qualified to practise here. Sister Julia who's main labour is now in patristic studies, has benefited from that and has her secondary labour as Thomas' alter ego in medicine. I expect that she will be joining in much of his pleading."

As they walked to the infirmary, the Monsignor asked "You have no children here; is there any regret over that?"

"I think not. Each of us volunteered to be sterilised before we came here. An eminent theologian ruled before this House was founded that inordinate sexual desire could be a disease, and the Church allows sterilisation as a treatment for disease. Thomas and Julia sometimes give thanks that they do not have to deal with obstetrics and paediatrics as well as all the other ills to which our bodies are subject."

The afternoon passed quickly in the infirmary, in the garden, and in the weaving shop. The Monsignor had seen nothing like the pair of computer controlled looms that were turning out luxury fabrics.

Before evening caritas, Sister Seraphina offered the Monsignor only a cup of coffee from the thermos jug;. After the grace, they took the seats in the niche that they had had in the morning. The Monsignor noted the couples and trio's forming, when his vision was blocked by Brother Joachim as he leant across to ask Sister Seraphina if he could serve her in any way. She rose and took him to a couch. They slowly stripped one another falling well behind the other couples and threes ( the Monsignor thought that he had seen one foursome, but was not sure) Sister Seraphina stood up for a moment with her back against Brother Joachim's cock and his hands powerfully massaging her breasts. She bent forward with her knees against the padded edge of the couch and her hands outstretched to hold her body up and to push her behind backwards to display it. Brother Joachim's cock touched her cunt, and slowly pushed in without the guidance of any hands. Sister Seraphina's smile back over her shoulder included the watching Monsignor as well as her partner.

Looking around the rest of the room, the Monsignor saw two all male couples, two threesomes, several pairs and the foursome he thought he had seen before. Their posture now made it clear that they were together. A young brother lay on his back with parted legs. A sister lay on her back on top of him, with a second sister head to tail with her. The Monsignor could see that their heads were active in each others genitals. Behind the second sister, an older brother was gripping her hips and thrusting his cock in and out of what the Monsignor reasoned must be her anus. The bottom cock suddenly sprung loose hitting the face of the upper sister. She eased it back into what the Monsignor judged must also be an anus. Next to them a middle aged monk on his back had his knees over the shoulders of the young brother whose penis was thrusting vigorously into his rear. To their right again was a pair with a sister on top between a brothers parted legs. Her arse and her whole body were moving with tremendous vigour while the brothers hands pressed her hips down toward his genitals. The tempo of the pair in the missionary position next to them was much slower, almost dreamy. The Monsignor realised with a start that the sister in it had the body of an old woman. Nevertheless her hips rose to meet every move of the young brother's cock. Sister Anna Dolores was again the notably happy centre of a threesome. Her mouth was ministering to the short, fat cock that he had noted close to his seat that morning. An elderly monk was fucking her cunt - the Monsignor realised suddenly that "fucking" was the right and natural word - fucking her cunt in doggy style. The small figure of Sister Julia was also being fucked doggy style by the tall, large-cocked and obese figure that he had been told was brother cook. Brother Thomas was between the hips of a young sister, fucking her vigorously as he held the hips of the older monk in front of him whose genitals were pressed to her face.

As movement became more hectic, the foursomes posture became unstable. As it broke partners were exchanged. In moments it seemed the upper sister was face down on the couch being buggered by the brother who had been at the bottom of the earlier pile. The sister who had been on top of him was riding the brother who had been up the anus of the upper sister. Sister Anna Dolores was reversing posture, moving to doggy style with the short, fat penis in her vagina and her smiling mouth on the penis of the elderly monk who was now lying at right angles in front of her. Brother Joachim lifted Sister Seraphina round so that she lay on top of him not so much riding him as being gripped and fucked from below. The well endowed Brother Samuel moved the plump sister he was fucking up onto her knees. The Monsignor could hear the slapping of his hips against her buttocks half across the increasingly noisy room.

It was the old nun whose climax first sounded across the whole room in a gasping, sighing cry. Sister Seraphina's clearly enunciated "Oh yes! Yes!" answered her; and the sound of female orgasm filled the room for minutes on end. Brother Samuel's copious and shouted climax came in the middle of it as the fat sister presed back and stroked his balls. It was minutes later before the control of the other brothers broke, and male grunts and groans joined the sisters cries. Immediately Sister Anna Dolores came across to the already stiffening Brother Samuel and after only one long kiss to his cock began to ride him.

The elderly nun lay with her legs apart where her younger partner had left her. Brother Joachim came across to her and began to kiss her lips, her sagging breasts and her clitoris as her right hand toyed with his cock and balls. Sister Seraphina went across to the two brothers who had been part of the foursome. Both had hairy chests. She rubbed her face in their chest hair while using her hands to arouse their cocks. Her tongue and lips touched all four of their male nipples in turn. The fat sister's behind was still in the air as Brother Samuel had left it. She raised her head and with her lips rapidly re-stiffened the cock of a sturdy young brother. The Monsignor heard the squelch as he drove into Brother Samuel's leavings in her cunt. Sister Julia was now head to tail with one member of an all male pair while a square built brother whom the Monsignor was sure had been a member of the other all male pair rubbed his cock and fingered what the Monsignor now saw was her boyish behind. As in the morning a number of brothers had now retired themselves, but those who remained still outnumbered the sisters.

Sister Seraphina raised her head from what was now a stiff young cock, and turned herself so that it could penetrate her vagina from below. Her mouth joined her hands in stimulating the older brothers genitals. In a very short time she drew her lips off a solid cock with a sucking, smacking kiss smiled up at him, dipped her hand into a little pot of grease, lubricated her anus as she moved on the prick in her vagina and spread her arse cheeks for him. He spent two minutes slowly easing in as she wriggled and moved to accommodate him and to please the brother whose cock was in her cunt. As he did so she stretched out her arm to offer the grease pot to the brother who was fingering Sister Julia's behind. He took it with wordless thanks and began to lubricate his cock very thoroughly. Before he had finished, Sister Anna Dolores and Brother Samuel came simultaneously The sisters and brothers who were still engaged in foreplay all came to grips as that orgasm continued. Sister Seraphina seemed to flop like a rag doll as the two sandwiching pricks moved in and out of her. Brother Thomas was now ploughing into a sister with large hanging breasts who was on hands and knees. Suddenly she began to moo like a cow. He roared in return like a bull. Sister Julia was now sandwiched like Sister Seraphina, but was far from limp. She was returning the thrusts of both cocks for all she was worth and half rotating her arse as she did so. Brother cook was being ridden by a young sister who had chosen to face towards his feet. She was fingering his heavy balls as she moved. A very trimly made sister came across to Sister Anna Dolores and lead her across to where an older monk was sitting up with a freshly revived cock. She gently but firmly sat Sister Anna Dolores on his cock, and went herself to revive Brother Samuel again. By the time she returned, he already offered a solid handful. She took it into her mouth for a long luxuriating suck before pulling Brother Samuel down onto her in a comfortable missionary position This time the female orgasms seemed to make up a sort of counterpoint with one another The moans were almost an undisciplined plainsong to the Monsignor's. unmusical ear.

But the wave grew again and the male climaxes began to come. The Monsignor saw Sister Seraphina's vagina dripping semen from her younger partner while she and the older monk in her anus now drove against one another. Both Sister Julia's partners seemed to come together. For a moment her body stiffened, almost into a spasm all over. The trimly built sister who had appropriated Brother Samuel got a hand to his balls as her cunt absorbed his third ejaculation of the evening. Brother cook's hand went across to the breast of a sister who was being fucked beside him and clenched gently on it as he came into the cunt of the young sister who now had both hands on his balls. The climaxes and semen spurted all over the room. Thirty seconds after the last of the others, the frantically speeding cock in Sister Seraphina's backside came to a halt and she called out as she felt the hot cum hit her colon. She lead the prayer of thanksgiving without moving from between her upper and lower partners.

Once again Sister Seraphina slipped her habit on before addressing the Monsignor. "I had not thought about the need building in my body until Brother Joachim asked if he could serve me. He was right as he so often is. I very badly needed the release to focus and centre my thoughts for the special chapter of the community tonight." She turned to join the other sisters going to their washroom. The Monsignor went with Brother Joachim.

The evening meal passed listening to an older monk reading from the rule. The Monsignor noted that the saying that after coitus all men were sad did not apply to these brothers. They seemed to reflect the glow of the sisters.

Immediately after the evening meal the room below the dining hall was re-arranged, and chapter of the whole house convened there with the brothers and sisters in a semi-circle facing Sister Seraphina and the Monsignor sitting at a raised table. As the newest member, Sister Anna Dolores read the prayer for wisdom in the decisions before them. Sister Seraphina said "Monsignor, you have matters to put to us. Please address them to me. My brothers and sisters will hear what you say and will likewise address their contributions to me."

The Monsignor made to rise, but Sister Seraphina gestured to him to speak sitting. "I am charged by His Eminence and colleagues to ask if you will help in the response to a need that is now perceived in the Church. There are a number of religious, men and women, whose vocation to the Church is extremely strong, who like you have an unsuppressable need to respond to the sexual needs of others. What makes these individuals different is that they say they respond only to gay or lesbian sexual need. The question is whether you can take them in here."

"When I was told of this House and asked to undertake this mission, I felt, and said, that it was probably hopeless. It is understood amongst those few who are aware of your House that you cater exclusively for the attraction between men and women. I have seen today that your ideal of carnal service to one another is wider than that. The need of some of these who now suffer for the tension between their vocation and their sexuality is indeed great. I have hope now that you will permit me to offer some of them some hope."

"Sister Seraphina, I think that this day in your House has changed me, and made me better able to serve the Church. Before I end my brief plea, let me thank you for that."

"Sister Seraphina said quietly and decisively "Brother Joachim".

"Sister Superior, when I entered this community I viewed the idea of sex with another man as utterly loathsome. At my second caritas, with evident love and an open heart, your predecessor Brother Andreas cured me of that and in the process gave my arse the most delightful fucking it has ever had. My main response as will be obvious after the pleasures of evening caritas today, is very much to the needs of sisters, but I doubt if I could be a true and useful member of this community if I did not have the potential to respond to the needs of all of us."

"Sister Seraphina turned her head and spoke "Sister Joanna"

A tall fourtyish sister responded. "I share with Brother Joachim a concentration on the needs of our sisters. I was brought up in a convent. Perhaps that environment imprinted itself on me, perhaps it is some more basic aspect of my make-up. I rest secure in that God knows why I am as I am. I came here somewhat under false pretences. I had learned a little response to the needs of men when I found that response to women only gave rise to even greater scandal. The barrier I still felt between myself and men began to melt in the very long drawn out welcome fuck that Brother Superior Andreas gave to me. He sensed a deeper need in me that I did not know I had. Two months caritas removed the rest of the obstacle. Now I am more than content responding, as our relative numbers dictate, more often to the needs of brothers than of sisters, but I still know that in responding to a sister I can usually fulfil her needs more fully than I can those of a brother."

"Brother William"

"Sister Joanna's words make me wonder if I am selfish. It is eleven years since I have responded to the need of a sister in caritas. Our relative numbers make it possible for me to leave responding to our sisters to those who are more sensitive to their needs than I. So in caritas I take the role of what the Monsignor calls a gay. But you will remember, Sister Seraphina, how I responded to your acute and unusual need that day eleven years ago when you were first promoted as deputy to our then Superior. It is to me essential that we should all be able to respond to any of the needs of our brothers and sisters that we can meet."

"Who else wishes to speak?"

"Brother Thomas"

"We are all as we are made. I do not have it in me to respond to a man with a stiffening of my penis. There are therefore needs of my brothers' bodies that I cannot meet. Nevertheless, I am grateful that I have learned here to satisfy the needs of other brother's penises in my mouth and my hands and my rear and to take real satisfaction from doing so. It is a learned response, not learned as well or as thoroughly as Sister Joanna's response to these same brothers, but with it I can feel at home in caritas serving our community"

"Anyone else?"

"Sister Anna Dolores"

"Sister Superior I speak in ignorance, but with gratitude. Before today I regarded lesbian behaviour as disgusting. When Sister Susannah came across to me in evening caritas just after Brother Samuel had fucked me so well, the thought passed through my mind that she herself might have need of my body, and I welcomed the thought. The prejudice left in me had somehow dissolved, and I rejoice that it is so."

"Further, Sister Superior, I have just come from the suffering and bleak isolation of those outside this House. I beg that the need of those who are still outside shall be felt at this moment, and felt keenly. And may we have faith in the power of caritas to prevent new brothers and sisters for isolating themselves for any of our needs."

"Thank you for your courage in speaking, and for what you have said, Sister Anna Dolores. Does anyone else wish to speak?"........"I must speak now for our community Monsignor."

She paused, gathering her words. "Monsignor, this house has never refused a brother or sister sent to it. That is a record we value and will seek to maintain. None of us would wish to exclude another person with a true vocation from the love and sanctuary here. You have seen in deeds and heard in eloquent words that we feel no opposition of principle or fact between what has been labelled heterosexuality and homosexuality. So far those you propose to us are welcome. The sooner we see them the happier we shall be."

"However, as I am perhaps more aware that are those of us who have no contact with the outside world that there are doctrines now current of exclusive pride in being gay or lesbian. We must ask that you will not send amongst us any brother or sister truly wedded to such doctrines. If you have to send them, we will do our best to dissolve their prejudices, but if we should fail those brothers and sisters would be just as hard for us to live with as would be homophobics. Err on the side of charity in sending us those with prejudices to dissolve, but do not err too far."

"I will endeavour to convey your words and your thoughts and the warmth of this House to those who sent me. I think they will be music to the ears of His Eminence."

The chapter concluded. As The Monsignor drank more coffee in the reception room with Brother Joachim and Sister Seraphina waiting for his car to arrive, she said " I think you know Monsignor, that if it was not for your vow of chastity, I would have to respond even now to your bodily needs." "I thought as much and thank you. But chastity is for me an old familiar hair shirt to which I cling."

"I have never felt that awareness of the needs of someone from the outside world before."

"I also feel that the Monsignor has become in some degree our brother in spirit today." said Brother Joachim. "We shall remember you in our prayers Monsignor, with a special affection, and dare to hope that when we next have a visitor it will be you."

"On my part that would be selfishness. I am already beginning a list of my colleagues who would benefit from a day's exposure to your community." The buzzer sounded for the car's arrival.
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