Part 8 -- Interlude

Author's note: I got this thoughtful email via Hotmail:

I don't want to be a pest, but as a person who wants to be a fan of yours I have to send you my opinion. If it is worth anything to you use it. If not, I understand and wish you the best. I feel that as a reader it is becoming frustrating to read a story and not see an end in sight. Your first story of this series was phenomenal. You did such a great job with the pain and the angst that Mike and Jen were going through as they traveled this journey. I do not normally get into cuckolding stories, but I felt Mike's pain and I was overjoyed when he and Jen made it work. The thing that made that series so great was the journey and the progress that was made. They had ups and downs, but at the end both of the characters grew. The story with Scott as the antagonist was truly great until the end. Once again, I felt Mike's pain. I felt his pain the greatest as he watched the tape. That was truly the climax of the story. Then you ended that story really abruptly, leaving the audience dissatisfied. But we gave you a pass because you said that you were going to round everything up with the next series. Now we start reading this series, thinking that we were going to get what we were robbed of in the series with Scott, which is growth, lessoned learned, and a true ending.

Yet here we are again, right at the same place that we were in the last series. Three stories later, and we are in the same exact place that we were at in the beginning of the first story with Ricky. Mike is the same person that he was when Ricky fucked Jen. She is the same person that she was. In your defense, she has grown a little bit in her confidence. I will give that to you. But that confidence isn't making her any wiser. It is just making her more selfish. You are losing your fan base because the fundamental element that makes this story work is eroding. Though they have an unorthodox relationship, they truly love each other. That element makes us want them to make it. However, the longer this drags on the more that element erodes away. There is only two ways that this path can go. They can grow closer together, or further apart. It seems that you have chosen to remain on the fence and keep them in the same exact place. I know this is fantasy, but a good story reflects some truth about real life. Without it, we the audience can't relate to it. Real life moves forward. A relationship stuck in one place is going to fail. It can't last that way.

Now, I understand that you have an attachment to these characters. If not, you would have ended this by now. But all good things must come to an end. I understand not bending to what the majority wants, but a part of you must care what your audience thinks. If not, why post your story on a website? I'm not tell you how to end your story. But I feel that you are in danger of losing us if you don't end it in some way. I do have ideas about what would be a great ending that is true to the characters, but I am not the author. If you want suggestions, email me and let me know. Good luck with the story. With the exception of not knowing when to let a story go, you are a good writer. Keep up the good work!

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I don't usually respond to comments -- it's like explaining a joke, kinda ruins it -- but this series has been going on for a while, so I thought I'd provide some commentary for the kind folks who have been hanging in there.

My stories are fiction but based on real life. The scene with Ricky at the start of "He Fucked My Girl" really happened my sophomore year in college. His name was Ricky too, and the way I've described him is accurate, as I saw him. He didn't fuck my girlfriend -- it wasn't Jen -- but I was in the next room and heard all about it the next day (and weeks after -- major scandal).

My hot wife/obsession developed from there. Or maybe it started earlier, who knows. I met the real Jen years later, after college. Yes, we're really Mike and Jen, we're married, and Jen looks like I describe. Most people in my stories are completely made up though. Ricky is real, and Allie is real. (Allie has mellowed over the years, not as wild; we put up with each other because of Jen.) I don't use real names of course.

Jen and I have had a few real life adventures, but we've never gone "all the way" with another guy. To my relief, and regret. I've told the real life Jen before we die I want to see her fuck another man. She rolls her eyes.

I use these stories to explore what could have happened. What if it HAD been my Jen who Ricky fucked in that dorm room? What would happen then? That kinda thing.

I'm fascinated by the hotwife/cuckold fantasy. I read a lot of stories and blogs, and one thing I CANNOT understand is how a guy can see the woman he loves fuck another guy, and not get jealous and hurt. How can that happen? You mix in the fantasy of your wife fucking a more handsome guy, a more confident guy, a guy with a better body and bigger cock, and that just adds fuel to the fire. How can the husband not feel threatened? This is something I'm always exploring in my stories. I guess there are guys who are so secure they don't get threatened no matter what, but that's not me.

I was going to leave "He Fucked My Girl" alone, but then I read Reluctant Cuckold (you can get it on Amazon). If you're into cuckold you'll enjoy this book, I hope the writer does a Part 2. Reluctant Cuckold was written from the point of view of the husband, and captured all his angst. I decided I wanted to try that. So that's how All In My Head came about.

People say All In My Head ended abruptly. You're right, it did. I got to the point in AIMH where I wanted to talk about what Jen was thinking. Because here's another thing that fascinates me about the cuckold fantasy. How is the wife's head affected by her husband's fantasy? A man is supposed to protect his woman. That's conventional thinking, right? But with the cuckold fantasy, the husband GIVES his wife to other men, and not just any men, but bigger, stronger, more handsome men. The wife's head -- her emotions, the way she sees her husband -- must be affected by that, right? So that's another topic I'm exploring in this story.

So, you can think of All In My Head as Mike's story, and Making It Work as Jen's. (By the way, I was kinda disappointed by the reaction to the 2nd epilogue of All In My Head. Not many people liked it. To me though, it's the best thing I've ever written. I guess it was a personal thing. It was fiction, but I tried to capture the spirit of how the real life Jen picked me. Here's a hot chick who's always dated hot guys. But they always treat her like shit, so she finally decides to give the shy math geek a chance.)

I've said this series is really a love story, and that's how I think of it. Mike and Jen love each other. But they both have extreme sexual desires. Mike is obsessed with the hot wife/cuckold fantasy. Jen has an insatiable sex drive, and let's herself get swept away in Mike's fantasy. Their fantasies take them to exciting places, and the more they play the more they want -- it's like a drug. But it also takes them to dark, bad places. How can it not? How can you live this lifestyle and not have strong emotions, both good and bad?

This is a wild lifestyle, and they're making mistakes. There's no user manual. Fun loving Allie, while harmless, is not helping. Neither is Keri. Scott is a predator.

People have said it's repetitive. That's a fair criticism. But to me, I think it takes a while for people to change. In my past stories I skipped scenes and did more summaries. I'd write something like "Within 3 months, Jen had gone from seeing Scott one night a week to 3 or even 4 nights a week."

Here, I'm going slower. I'm kinda playing it out week by week, sometimes day by day. I'm exploring the themes I mentioned earlier, and I think it takes time or else emotionally it doesn't work. Also, I think it takes a while for people to grow. Mike and Jen have flaws. He gets jealous and upset, and she goes head-over-heels at the start of relationships. They're making mistakes, big time. They're growing because of work. How does this all play out? Can they make this lifestyle work? I think it takes time to develop all that.

But the end is in sight. The last chapter is Part 12. So if you just want to see how things turn out, wait a while and just read (or skim, as you like) Part 12.