I had always had some sort of sexual feeling toward Ian. Of course i never considered myself gay, as I was attracted to women, I had always just wanted to pay Ian back for all that he has given me.

  I had always seen myself as attractive. Not to girls, but to myself. I was white, chubby, with what i thought was a great ass. I had experimented with anal play but that was only with myself. I couldn't ignore the sexual tension between me and Ian. 

  One night Ian and I were watching a movie at his house. I was always prepared just in case we might actually hook up, so i was wearing some tight black boxer briefs that showed off my ass quite well. Ian and I always sort of joked about being gay together, but tonight he was acting sort of strange. I decided to ask him about it.

  "Ian, what's the matter?" I asked.

  "John, look. I need to tell you something but I don't want you to be mad or tell anybody."

  "Sure buddy I'm listening", I replied.

  "John I want you so bad. I've masterbated countless times to you and me fucking. I want you John. Please."

  It was like a gunshot exploded in my head. Sure, I wanted Ian bad, but I wasn't expecting this. 

  "Ian, I agree. Let's do this."