I was in the Air Force, stationed near San Antonio, a thousand miles from home where no one knew me. Early 20s, tall and slim. I had been propositioned a few times by gay guys but always refused, afraid that someone would "find out." I always wondered what it would be like to have sex with a guy, but never had the nerve to say yes. I had often pounded off fantasizing about sucking a man's c*ck and being sucked. I really wanted to try it, but again - I was afraid to try.

I had gone into town on a Saturday to a small hole in the wall movie theater that was showing 3 feature length movies. This was long before porn was legal and there were no porn theaters. I was very naive. I was not looking for a hook up, in fact, that was far from my mind.

There were probably only about 20 people in the theater at the time. I was sitting in the middle of a row. A young guy came down the aisle, squeezed past in front of me, and sat down in the seat next to me. I thought it a little strange, as I say I was very naive. I figured I would get up and move in a few minutes and went back to watching the movie. He had sort of spread out, taking over the arm rest between the seats, and his hand was hanging over. I am not sure how much time had passed. I was suddenly aware of the fact that his fingertip was just touching my knee, so lightly it could almost have been an accident. It was like being hit by a bolt of lightning. I now knew why he had sat down next to me. A thousand thoughts went thru my mind. At first I was scared, angry, and confused. I was frozen in place. My mouth was dry, my heart was pounding.

I then began to think about how I always wondered what it would be like. There I was a thousand miles from home where no one knew me. I was not sure what to do. I finally moved my knee toward him, and his hand dropped onto my knee. I think my body was shaking.

He very slowly worked his hand up toward my crotch. By that time I had a raging hard on. My chest was tight, I seemed to be having trouble breathing. I was scared and excited at the same time. This was really happening. I was sure that everyone in the theater must be watching and knew exactly what was going on. And then . . .

Then he suddenly removed his hand and just sat there. Now what? What do I do now? I was scared and excited and yet I didn't want it to end. I finally got up the nerve to reach over and placed my hand on his crotch and began to caress him. I could feel his hardon thru his trousers. He finally leaned over and asked if I had somewhere we could go. I explained I lived in a barracks. He finally said he was staying at a tourist home and we ended up going there.

We sat on the edge of the bed and he started rubbing my crotch. Again my heart was pounding, mouth dry, scared and excited at the same time. I was finally going to find out what it was like! We ended up naked and on the bed together. We groped a bit. There was no hugging or kissing, although I am not sure how I would have reacted if he had tried to kiss me. I really did want to find out what it would be like to suck his cock and to get sucked. He ended up over me with his cock in my mouth, fucking my mouth until he came. I spit it out which made him mad, but hey, it was my first time. It was not what or how I envisioned. I then asked him to suck me off and he refused, saying that he didn't suck. This was a huge surprise and disappointment. I had no idea that someone that was gay or bi would not suck a c*ck. He finally gave me a hand job, but took his hand away as soon as I started cumming. It was almost as though he regarded my cum as poison. He was mad when I spit his out, but he would get nowhere near mine!

That was more than fifty years ago. I have had a few more experiences since then. Was married for many years. Divorced now for many years. I look back and it is the old story - I regret not having more experiences. We so often regret more the things we did not do than the things we did do. If you are one of those people that is scared or undecided, don't let the time get past you - it is moving much faster than you think! Go try it (whatever it is) before it is too late! I have often managed to hook up with the same type of guy, those wanting to be pleased but not willing to return the favor. Sad and frustrating! Fortunately I have had a few enjoyable experiences. In fact, the absolute best sexual experience I have ever had was with another guy. That is a story for another time.

I really enjoy hearing about other's first time, love to hear from anyone willing to share. Possibly meet someone near Chicago to share "war stories" and maybe share more. I would like to meet a married bi-guy or even a curious guy that is in need of a very discreet friend and is in a sexless marriage and might like to 69. If you are curious we would proceed at your speed with absolutely no pressure.