You are Robin Wren, a great looking college sophomore, and you are once again stroking your large cock to cuckold porn; currently and seemingly perpetually girlfriend lacking. That isn't completely true, you aren't perpetually lacking a girlfriend. Yesterday, you had a girlfriend, Penny. She wasn't even your first girlfriend this semester. There was also Nancy and last semester there was Tracy, Kristin, Leslie, and Jane. You don't seem to have any trouble getting a girlfriend. Your great looks, including your very sizable and noticeable bulge, and agreeable nature lets you pick up women and get girlfriends easily. It is keeping them that seems to be impossible for you.
This short, weeks long, relationship ended the same way all your previous ones did as well. With your girlfriend bleeding, crying, and screaming their breakup with you, after your latest attempt at sex. The culprit was the same as it has always been, your large twelve plus inch cock. No matter how much she said she could handle it or how ready she said she was, your girlfriend's pussy couldn't take it. None of them could, they would always struggle to get your cock in. Then once they fit your horse cock in and you started to push further in, they would start screaming in pain. When you take it out your cock would have some blood on it. No matter how slow you went, none of your girlfriends could take more than the first few inches. And none of them enjoyed any part of it. They were all in to much pain during sex with you.
You don't know why this keeps happening to you. You have seen cocks in pornos that are almost as big as yours fit into girls, so you know it should also be possible for you. But with each girl and each time you try sex with them, the outcome is the same. You are left feeling completely remorseful; extremely frustrated both emotionally and physically; totally crushed emotionally; and absolutely rejected. And so you are once again back to your porn to get yourself off. And just like always after a break up your porn of choice is cuckolding. You like and watch a lot of porn both in variety and quantity. But every time after a breakup you are drawn again to cuckold porn.
The best you can rationalize to yourself why you keep going back to cuckold porn is that you can relate to and be jealous of both the cuck and the bull. You relate and empathize with the cuckold, because you also fail to satisfy your girl. And you are jealous that he gets to enjoy a relationship and derive some sexual pleasure from it, whereas you get none of that. With the bull you relate to their large cock and are jealous of their ability with it. If only you could actually figure out how to use yours as well as they did. Or maybe like the cuckolds, you should accept that your huge cock is useless for sex and you should lock it up or ignore it while someone else pleases your women.
The thought of either being a master cocksmith or watching your girl get fucked, has your cock rigid. You don't know which one is turning you on more. You are confused as to which you want more. But you make the decision now that you are going to pursue being one of them. You are sick and tired of trying to find a girl that you can have a relationship with, only for it to disastrously and inevitably fail, then blow up in your face. You are determined that your next relationship will be about sex and you finally getting some sexual relief and enjoyment out of fucking. You are going to trust your gut and assume your fascination with all aspects of cuckolding has some deeper implications for you. Maybe if you can finally get sexual relief, as either the bull or cuck. So you swear to yourself that you will either find someone who will cuck you or a couple you could cuck. You know the perfect way to decide. Whichever thought you cum to during this masturbation session will be what you seek out.
So you start watching a bunch of different cuckolding pornos. You just love the way the girls are crying out in pleasure demanding to be fucked harder by their lovers bigger cock. You imagine you are their lover fucking them. While you listen to them scream out how great your cock is and how fucking good you feel. You want to feel what that is like. You have never had a pussy wrap around your cock before. You don't know how it will feel. So you start getting turned on as you imagine you are the cuck. And the girl is telling you how great it feels to be fully stuffed. And how you could never give her this amount of pleasure. How you are only good for oral sex and clean up.
As your masturbation session continues and you watch more cuckold videos, you realize that you can't focus on one aspect long enough to cum. And you realize that this would be a horrible way to chose. There are way to many biases affecting your decision. Like gramps would say, you are putting the cart before the horse here. You should chose one option to pursue first, then use that to focus enough to masturbate. You figure the best way to decide between two options would be to flip a coin. But that doesn't seem to fit the theme of this decision. It should be something sexual in nature. You wrack your brain for a sexually charged way to decide. Then you remember this time in high school you played spin the bottle. That was a great memory, you reminisce over kissing your crush. And now that you think about it, you had a crush on an inordinate number of the other girls and a few of the guys playing the game with you. So you will use spin the bottle to pick with half a circle for one option each. "Fuck," you exclaim when you realize you don't actually have a glass bottle to spin. You think you have to have something else that would fill in. You run through what you have that you could use.
Pencil or pen? Nah, too pedestrian you think.
Shampoo bottle? No, too potentially messy.
Looking at your desk you see scissors. That would cut to the heart of the matter. But even with that cool pun you don't think it is really appropriate to use it. You guess you could get dressed and go to the mini-mart to get a glass coke bottle. But you really don't want to deal with all that hassle and stop watching porn.
Come on you think. There has to be something you can use. You need something cylindrical with differentiated ends. You wish your cock could detach, that would be literally letting your dick decide. "Shit, that's it," you think. You will use the vibrator you got to warm up your girlfriend. It failed to get any of your girlfriends ready for you, but now maybe it could help you finally figure out how to get your rocks off. You go and get the bullet vibrator from your dresser. Now you have to figure out what to use for the circle. You really only need some sort of division of sides. As you walk back to your desk top, you look at each of your large monitors displaying different pornographic displays. One has a cuckold porn playing from the bulls POV (point of view) and the other had one playing from the cuck's POV.
Ooh that gives you the idea to set up the monitors to have the vibrator select one of the screens and what ever is on it is what you will focus on and experience first. You excitedly set up your ad-hoc spin the bottle. Or in your case, spin the vibrator. But not to decide who is kissing who; oh no your depraved self will use it to determine if you become a bull or cuckold first. You are feeling giddy that you will finally decide how you will first explore your biggest fetish. Hopefully, you acting on your fetish will result in a successful sexual encounter.
Taking a deep breath you spin the bottle...eeerr vibrator... and slowly release your breathe as it spins down.